Maybe it's because I'm going on my 3rd week of being a weekday-single-mother.
Maybe it's because I am also juggling a part-time job on top of it.
Maybe it's because this part-time job I am juggling is like a haven for me -- a break from the crazy that goes on in my home -- and lately I have had the added stress of switching (or completely missing) shifts due to weather, illness or child-care stresses.
Maybe it's because I have a dear friend who has been suffering from extreme back pain over the last several months and I couldn't help take away the pain (who finally had her surgery this past week by the way, and it was a huge success...phew!!).
Maybe it's because another one of my dear friends is moving 2 provinces away in a month and a half and that will leave a hole in my life that I want to pretend won't actually happen.
Yes, maybe it is all those things -- and more that I just won't get into right now -- that are dragging me down and making me feel less than happy these days.
But what if...
Maybe -- just maybe -- it's because my hubby has a great job where he can enjoy his work (except for the long hours away from his wife & kids) and provide for his family.
Maybe -- just maybe -- it's because I have been blessed to be able to keep my foot in the door at my job until I can work full-time again when the kids are in school.
Maybe -- just maybe -- it's because I am blessed to have a boss who is flexible with my hours and lets me work things out on my end that suits the needs of me and my family.
Maybe -- just maybe -- it's because God wants to remind me that even when things don't make sense (like the situation with my friend and her back injury), that He is in control.
Maybe -- just maybe -- it's because I am incredibly blessed to have so many friends and God is reminding me to not take them for granted; but rather to show them how much I love them and appreciate them on a regular basis in case one day they won't be a regular part of my life anymore.
Yes, maybe -- just maybe -- it is all those things and many more that should put a smile on my face and remind me that I really have a wonderful life full of many blessings.
Then why isn't it as easy as it sounds?