I thought I should give you all a quick little update on my mental/emotional state since the last post wasn't all that positive.
While I still have an 'off' day here and there -- I can finally say that the good days far outweigh the bad days! The higher dose of the Welbutrin seems to have kicked in, and now it is a rare thing when I feel anxious. There are still days where I do have to entertain this feeling though, and I'm not quite sure what triggers those days, or why the drugs don't seem to work *all* the time.
I do have a doctor's appointment coming up at the beginning of September, so I'll ask my doctor some questions at that time...but at this point, I am hesitant to go off of this and try yet another drug, not knowing what withdrawal would be like this time around!
I feel like I have had a wasted summer though since I have been so emotionally wrecked and exhuasted for most of it. I still have the "if only's" play through my mind...mainly "If only" I had waited to go off of Paxil until after I started my Biggest Loser competition. If I would've been able to conquer weight loss purely with my own efforts, I might not have ever had to go off of Paxil to begin with...
But what's done is done so I am trying to leave all of that in the past and just look ahead. So just so you all know, I am doing much better than that hopeless post a couple of weeks ago.