I'm a worrier. Plain and simple. I worry about whether it's going to rain tomorrow to prevent my hubby from putting in his hours at work. I worry about my kids getting sick - especially this time of year. I worry about what someone is going to think if I give my opinion on something that goes against the grain. I worry about the fact that I might not be the best person to be teaching my girls how to play the piano. I worry about Malia struggling with reading. I worry about raising teenage daughters in the coming years. I worry about gaining my weight back. I worry about offending people with the way I often withdraw from social situations. I worry about how much I worry.
I used to always wonder why worry was considered a sin. Afterall, it's a feeling right? And aren't we entitled to feel the way we feel?
But over the last many years, the reasoning behind that has begun to make sense to me. I found an article written by Dr. Larry Ollison that explains it really well, and here are a few excerpts from it:
"Worry, which is a type of fear, is the opposite of faith. In the English
language we have words that have opposite meanings. If I were to ask
you the opposite of hot, you would immediately say cold. If I asked you
the opposite of up, you would quickly say down. If I asked you the
opposite of east, you would immediately say west. Why? Because they
are opposites. They not only are opposed to each other, they can not
exist together at the same time.
Sometimes when you translate
from one language to another, the meaning can be lost. That’s the case
with worry. In the Hebrew language the opposite of worry is faith.
Remember worry is a type of fear.
In the same way that you can
not be going up and down at the same time because they are opposites,
you can not be in worry and be in faith at the same time. When you are
in faith, you are not in worry. And when you are in worry, you are not
He goes on to say:
"Worry is a tool of Satan. He knows that if he can get you to worry, you
will not be in faith. When you are not in faith, you will be
ineffective as a Christian. So today I will tell you the same thing
Jesus did. Do not worry. No matter how bad things look, do not worry."
My worry is a sin because it means I am not trusting in God. Yes, feelings are feelings - but it's how you react to those feelings that can cause something sinful. And if I am consumed with worry about one thing and another...and another...and another...that's the complete opposite of faith and without faith I will be ineffective as a Christian.
As humans, sinning is inevitable. We all sin each and every day. So yes, there will be times when I will still worry - and therefore be without faith. But my prayer is that I can recognize it as the sin that it is, repent, and start with a clean slate day after day. I want to give my worry to God instead of my worry taking away from God.
This "worry-wart" has a lot of work to do in this area...but I'm going to do my best!